cough cough cough!!!! argh!!! my throat so itchy... keeps coughing... it's noisy! haha!

aniwae this toh jing jing ar, she so idiot lor... allow her friends to bully me, if gal nvm... but is guys lor... she flirt eh. lol! no lar. send me msg... so suan lor. but then cannot blame her lar... me nt angry wif her lar.. haha! me nt petty e lor... lol!

then presentation todae i think i did terrible. maybe e toking part still ok... but then e question n ans section... terrible.. i nv ans a lot lor.. actualli wan ans some e... but then smtimes being cut in by yean man lor. haha! but then this CRS grp quite fun lar... gt me, ym n yc... starting actualli i tot this grp will be like sure die e... but then after some discussions like it's getting better lor. haha!

aniwae this few weeks gt more projs le... so sian.. although i like projs last sem. haha! so next wed gt gems presentation. ok.. this one is terrible, we haven even met up.. cos it's like all from diff sch so it's veri hard to compromise a common date lor. then i think e grp members gt 2 also quite bo chap.. the 2 "gangster" guys. haha! dunno y tr wan to put them in our grp... haha... hope we can gt it done soon.

then gt A E and E proj.. that one a bit tough leh... six good frens a grp.. haha! dunno how this combi will work... we also haven even started yet lor... but then gt so mani clever guys... sure can e lar... we can make it! haha!

then still gt mip material selection... aniwae this sem.. gt try mani combi of grps. haha! i think CD was e best grp.. gt me ,pl n ym... dunno y leh.. cos we realli did had ALOT of fun. then CRS quite ok... then mip haven start yet.. so dunno how.. gt me, ym n ed koh... haha! ooh... i realise i nv grp wif banu at all this sem lor... n also all 3 grps gt ym e leh... i shld change place wif PL mah... her hubby. lol! but then ym did improve in doing grp work le. haha

then i think CIP mus do reflection.... dunno hu's my grp members. haha! but i think this one simple lar... jus put some pics.. then some words jiu done le.. haha

with so mani projs... how am i to survive? haiz.. luckily CRS over le. wahahahahaha!!!!

need to anaylse circuits le....

xia coughing off!


ytd seems to be a terrible day for me. firstly, i was sick... from fri till now le... everytime i sick will take veri long to recover. haha! noe y.. cos i hate to see e doctor. lol! i noe chi ku e shi wo zi ji... but.. hmm... haha!

then cppa that time gt a second blow. dun tok bout it le. i was sad... but didn show out. cos everytime when im realli sad... i will hide the sadness n try to be happy e. but when im nt sad... ppl will think im sad... it's wierd. jus like ytd... i was sad but didn realli show out... maybe onli pohloo can see im sad bah. cos i also dunno y... jus like to hide my feelings.

hiding my feelings for me means... showing e opposite of myself... when im smtimes happy means im sad... but i dun wan sadness to control over myself. n when i like someone means i hate that person. haha! no lar... aniwae toking bout liking someone... ppl say if u r in love u will have a special feeling. how does tat feel huh? i think i have been suppressing that feeling. haha! jus like in sec sch, when i gt a crush on that person i will try my best to hate that person, jus to make myself dun like tat person. im jus wierd lor. but sometimes suppress too long le will giv up n maybe explode e. haha! n my horoscope for this wk say... i will be in a state of loss... gan qing shang hui hen mi ma... dunno whether im treating that person as a friend or as someone i like... haha! so funni. lol! horoscope smtimes realli cannot believe e.

sometimes, u see e real me is nt actualli me. haha! i dun realli like to say out my inner feelings to ppl e. tat's aquarius bah... how i wish i realli gt a soulmate hu can realli listen to me e lor... but then i think it's tough. ppl wont wan to involve themselves into other ppl's problems... and create more worries for themselves. i think onli counsellors hu gt paid will do such jobs... cos they are PAID. haha!

im jus too sick in my mind now... haha.. so rather crapping thru.... lol!

xia signing off!


i wondered wat jesster did to e poor dog. castrated it? haha! poor thing... now it looks better or wierd?

xia signing off!





on sat n sun, i was rather busy but having fun at e same time. haha! cos my distant relative came to s'pore. at first i didn noe how i was related to them, but then i realised, she is my godaunt. her home land is hong kong but then she migrated to cananda. she is so damn rich lor. haha! aniwae we played host n brought them around to eat.

on sat nite, we brought them to eat and shop around. then we tok alot.. hmm, she say s'pore n hong kong gt not much difference. the shops almost all e same and things like tat. starting she speak in cantonese, me cant understand much lar. then she change to speak in english. haha! i think her english better than me lor.. then at around midnight they went to sing K. wow can sing until 4am the next day lor... li hai! haha

on sun, we went to trader's hotel for buffet lunch.. i tell u i eat until can explode liao. cannot tahan, but the food there quite nice yea..


eat n eat lor...


y open ur mouth n eyes so big?


nice huh. eat until mouth all black.


his first try having salad. vegetables can jus kill him.


my family plus e lady in green i forgot her name n connie e lady in black.


my cousins! ah kun acting tall lar. stu!

then we brought them to botanic garden since veri near to the hotel. haha! many flowers for me to take. my bro keep following my uncle to learn the art of photography.


e clock. haha, i also going around taking pics.. sian ar.


she just loves to take pictures n keep nagging me to carry her. she's heavy!


haha!


this pic my bro is trying to capture like water droplets e.. dunno he say my uncle he took e effect veri nice. haha!


this spider taken by my uncle. veri clear n detailed.


wow, artistic rite?


nice hor, the flower taken rather close up.


flower nice seh. first time i see camera take e pic can take e flower until so detailed.


xian hua pei mei nu. haha! k lar, dun vomit. lol!


gu guai 4 ren zhu. haha!


argh!!! hell broke loose!!!


speak no evil, see no evil, hear no evil. (pardon the clarity, taken from hp. haha!)


wat is tat?


she's still hungry.


big family photo, ah cam is missing!


acting shuai onli. haha!


raindrops falling on my head.


most photo taken by the future photographer.


stanford raffles? dun think so.


she's pulling his pants down, while he tries to pull his pants up.

then after botanic trip, we went to bottle neck village for dinner. eat again lor. at first everybody already veri full le, but then went crab ar, clams ar, prawns ar were put on the table, everyone turn into hungry ghosts again. haha! e place realli veri isolated, far away, then to go into tat restaurant mus pass by an errie trail, so dark at nite, veri few noes how to get there. but the food also veri nice.


e famour bottle neck tree.

then after dinner we went back home, then they continue to play mahjong. i wan to play e, but then veri late le, next day still gt sch. aniwae they went back ytd nite. i wanted pon sch whole day e lor...my bro say they first went vivo city they eat alot again, then brought them to airport. i think i will miss them. haha! hope they come often lar.

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so many things to do. reports n assignments. now although finish ap chem report le, but still gt mip and gems report. mip leh, gt no format... so agar agar bah. then gems leh, mus analyse the film liao then ans qn. one qn is to compare the physical intimacy n emotional intimacy. how am i going to compare? then CD although gt general idea, but still need to look for more info. then CRS leh, mus find reasons for our issue which is tough, maybe we had chose e wrong issue. then coming soon gt mip assignment. also dunno how tough will it be.. hope it's easy. haiz... this semester is like so much tougher than last semester. i feel so... now.... am i putting too much stress on myself? i so envy of my JC frens lor, now having sch holiday... ai yo... they relaxing i struggling leh. holidays!!! quick come to me!!!

aniwae jus now went for mentoring event. so damn boring lor. waste my whole morning onli, this time can let me do report de leh. but at least can see e 3 little guys lar, so happy they still rmb us. then see the seniors wear formal wow! guys handsome, gals pretty lor. haha! then gt game carnival but then so kiddish for those pri sch kids onli.. so me n pl jus wen off lor. haha!

ytd had small joint celebration for banu n pohloo. their bdae coming soon. aniwae banu was like so touched when she open her presents. we went to vivo city. my veri first time there leh. haha! veri big n crowded tat place. me n pl play in the water. wahaha! make me wet onli. haha! e view there realli veri nice lor. jesster, me finally go vivo liao. wahahaha!!! no need to envy u le. haha! aniwae we took alot of pics ytd, wait for pl send me then upload here lar. haha

aniwae i am a person hu dun like ppl to ask if im sad when i ownself dun even feel that i am. which means if am sad, dun keep asking me if im alrite. cos i will continue to be sadder. im wierd, but i noe cos ppl cares for me... hmm.. so there's ppl hu cares for me. lol! maybe jus try to make me happy jiu ok le. then i am also a person hu dun like ppl to ask me if im angry ar. if u keep asking i will be angrier. haha! so im a wierd creature.

xia signing off!


ytd seems to be a terrible day for me leh.. although it's my mother's bdae. also dunno how explain. haha!

aniwae for 17 years yea.. me nv experience before such a strong feeling. this feeling leh.. seems wierd. veri confusing de leh. also dunno how to explain. This feeling i experience before but nt as strong leh. me going explode liao.. if this goes on..

heard jeremy say wan 4e1 class chalet huh. haha! but then hor... me personally will feel it will be wierd. cos like for veri long we nv meet up le, then suddenly chalet, later go le.. then nv tok, then feel awakard how? although i veri much wan to meet up wif them. haha! hope tat person is going... but then that person not in s'pore le bah. lol!

aniwae chat wif matthew in msn... then all of a sudden we talked bout relationship... so stu! he asked, will i go out wif short guys like him. cos he keep saying he so short, veri hard to find gfs de. so i told him to go for operations to grow taller lor. haha! but then u like a person no need see height e rite? but then.. haha.. for me ar... personally ar... i prefer guys that's taller than me. wahahaha! allthough last time i alwaes had crush on short guys, which is damn wierd. lol! maybe onli to jesster she feels that she cannot accept guys that's younger than her. wahahahaha! n he asked if i believed in love at first sight. i was huh... stu lar. then also ask me if i will confess to e guy i like... idiot... so i didn ans him but asked him back if he will confess to e gal he likes. haha! now no mood to tok bout all this liao.

xia signing off!


ooh... counting down to 10 days before i change back to bus concession le. haha. shld be bah. lol!

aniwae i smthimes find things veri ironic. ppl tend to change veri quickly. haha, also dunno wat made them change their views de. be it on.. their emotions or people or decisions. haha!

so funni. today i cant stop laughing. mani things made me laugh. chat wif jess also made me laugh non- stop. read her msn pm, also make me laugh alot. haha! todae can die of heart attack. lucky, jess say i haven see e ah zhen video or i realli will die of heart attack. haha!!!!

banu send another email again. this time on horoscope. haha! i read bout aquarius.. i also cant stop laughing. haha!

Aquarius Personality
You seem to live on a different plane altogether - sympathetic, sensitive, friendly, but distant. It is very difficult for you to become very involved with anyone or anything. You are very conscious and value your personal space, this tends to bring about a certain loneliness, although you have a whole lot of friends who hold you in high regard. You tend to be philosophical and have strong intuitive powers. You are an admirer of beauty and everything about you seems soft and gentle. You are unconventional and like to be original, something that results in bizarre and unpredictable behaviour. You like to broaden your horizons of knowledge and are always ready to think beyond the present. Having an analytical mind, you are particularly drawn towards science. You are not easily agitated and are patient and persevering. Aquarians hold strong beliefs and it is not easy to change their minds or opinions. However, in matters of religion, they are not fana tics. They accept the idea of universal brotherhood and are mostly modern in their outlook.

Aquarius Lover
You will allow very few people to encroach on your personal space. The lucky ones who you allow intimacy,will however find you fascinating and quite enchanting. Those you fall in love with will most likely share your artistic and intellectual interests. Once in love, you will try to make everything perfect for your partner. You will accommodate, compromise and adapt even if you find that person is not exactly the ideal match you imagined him or her to be. Besides Aquarians, you are best suited to marry those born under Gemini and Libra. Your fondness for travel will find you settling down some place far from where you spent your childhood. You are a home-loving person, having a penchant for cooking and other domestic activities, collecting spices and trying out various recipes are often your pastime pleasures. Your approach to love and marriage is logical and intellectual, loving with your mind, as well as your eyes. You treat children with respect and give due consideration to their views.

HAHA!!!! i find this part most funni de. lol!! i like kids wor.. yea!!! haha!!! actualli most mail veri long.. i cut short. lol!

continue wif my laughing!!!! hahahahaahahahahahaahahahahahaha!!!!

xia signing off!


warning!!! bomb (me) exploding soon. hmm.. be careful!!! tml might explode. too much things le. hope i dun realli explode. but cannot control!!! argh!!!! beware!!! haha!

xia.


aniwae i jus came back from the rain... went to settle some things and had my lunch. aniwae this stupid idiot loh kun jie, he ar... like to use ice to throw at me. stu him! throw at my leg, my stomach. idiot lar! pain sia, impact so big. haha! i wan throw him back but gt no ice liao.. idiot! i will take my REVENGE!!!!!!

haiz.. so mani mails seh.. inbox 100% full liao. no time to clear... trying to clear le.. how to upgrade ar? then just received this email from banu, i find it a bit lame leh. HAHA!

**17 signs of really really liking someone ** (so stu!)

SEVENTEEN: U LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE/PICTURE CONSTANTLY

(eh? gt so interesting to look at meh. show me hu's interesting i go see lor.)

SIXTEEN: WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.

(wahaha! i dun call ppl de, waste my phone bill, ppl call me. haha!)

FIFTEEN: YOU READ THEIR TEXTS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

(waste inbox space onli, i read n delete de. haha! but then i like to sms, gt mani free mah haha!)

FOURTEEN: YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH THEM

(gt so much time to stroll ar.. siao...)

THIRTEEN: YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE AROUND.

(shy? siao, i dun shy de lar... shy for wat?)

aniwae where's 12 huh?

ELEVEN: WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEARTBEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME

(heart attack liao lar. onli beat faster when gt back results. haha!)

TEN:YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE. or[hear bout them]:]

(hu so interesting to noe about. xiao zhu? haha!)

NINE: WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM/HER.

(stu! i see everyone de lor.. but normally see poh loo onli. haha!)

EIGHT:YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS,WHILE THINKING OF THEM

(although i like slow, emo songs but then wont think of anione de leh. i listen to the lyrics onli, disrupt the mood onli.)

SEVEN: THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.

(wow, so much time to think meh. i onli think bout work lor!)

SIX: YOU LOVE THEIR HUGES MORE THAN ANYTHING.

(ya.. i miss hugging japsnop! but his gone... argh!!!)

FIVE: YOU REALIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.

(duh! ppl will think im crazy. smile to myself.. i tot onli mad ppl does tat?)

FOUR: YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.

(siao, so much time ar.. i ownself gt so much to do liao leh.)

THREE: WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME...

(wow, hu's tat lucky person eh. i onli think of japsnop leh.)

TWO: You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve.

(i gt notice ar. haha!)

ONE:You just scrolled up to check & are now silentely laughing at yourself.

(i say i gt notice liao.)

NOW MAKE A WiSH. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO.......
how u noe.. i wan my japsnop back?

this is so lame.. haha! but rather interesting lar.. lol! aniwae i read le cannot stop laughing lor. dunno y. maybe cos i rmb jess tat face when she on ferry? aniwae my bro much more enthu than me.. keep asking me to scroll down faster like he wan to see if he shows that signs. haha!

xia signing off!




ytd, we went to semakau landfill. at first i tot it would be terrible.. wif the unbeareable smell and ugly sight.. but then i was wrong lor. the place is jus so beautiful. u jus wont noe we are at a landfill. haha!

aniwae starting jesster was so moody.. tok to her... onli gt short replies.. but then after a while... she cheer up liao. yea!!! she say thanks to semakau. wahahahaha!

we had to take a ferry there... so i was like so scared will vomit lor.. but then i think jesster was e most scared...

i think she's in a shock?

aniwae scenery there veri nice...

i seem to have bao ya. haha! nice combination? haha!

doing some warm up exercises? bend it like Beckham. haha!

on our way back.. giddy.. haha!

i found my song!!! wahahaha!!!

xia signing off!

Wednesday, November 08, 2006 Y 9:01 AM

ooh.. nt in a good mood to blog. came back from chalet. was quite fun.. went cycling which was the most interesting part. cycled thru e nite. but then for the rest of the time.. it is just rather boring. it was rather different from last semester's chalet. last sem we seem to have alot to tok n mani pictures to take... but then this sem we tok n play veri few, pictures also take veri little. hmm... i wen back e second nite.. haha! cos... i miss home.. no lar... dunno leh, cos i jus wan to be home. yea.. but then overall chalet was fun lar... i think also no chance for our class to have chalet again le...

aniwae wen i return home tat nite, i was veri sad lor. nt becos of anithing else lar... cos japsnop is missing le. argh!!! his gone forever liao lar.. i think my mother threw it away when im nt around. now i jus feel so empty. so terrible. GONE!!! argh!!!! i cannot imagine lor... GONE FOREVER? sad lar... jus add to my sadness onli.

ooh.. visitors from canada coming to my house next week... ai yo, mus clean up the house, veri difficult lar, clear my table alone can die liao lor... also dunno y they come for wat? visiting ar? my father they say our distant relatives but also dunno how are they related to me. argh.. dun bother, jus put on a false smile will do? haha! im dead...

ai ya... also dunno wat to say... moodless... i wan to find new song le... to fit how i feel now...

xia signing off!

Saturday, November 04, 2006 Y 2:16 PM

todae's topic will be on lesbians bah. wahahahaha! hmm... y ppl so scared of lesbians leh? hmm.. aniwae i tried to scare jesster by saying im a lesbian n had been alwaes an- lian -ing her. she was so frightened. she say if i realli lesbians she going to ignore me forever. haha! maybe this shows nt mani ppl can accept lesbians bah. haha!

aniwae i am alwaes with poh loo rite.. then ppl like say we alwaes cannot separate.. so are we lesbians? hahaha! i dun think so bah... i dun like her, she dun like me... lol! unless pl secretly an lian wo? haha! realli mah? but we sometimes tok bout guys. hmm... shld be bah. how to prove if one is nt les leh? erm.. if tat gal doesnt fantasie over a gal? if that gal has a crush on guys? if tat gal sees guys they like heart will beat faster? hmm.. hahaha!

but then i think im straight lar... it would be horrible if im a lesbian. i think i cant accept myself bah.. so jess, dun worry so much. lol!

aniwae ytd saw 2 lesbian couples... oh man.. they were holding hands somemore.. cannot stand it leh... haiz... cant imagaine... but then maybe im too bias againt lesbians le... maybe it's jus in their mind.. yeap...

yoo hoo... getting excited!!!! ytd nite kept listening to QI QUAN, feel the lyrics so nice n true.. the whole song is jus so veri de NICE. yeap...

xia signing off!

Friday, November 03, 2006 Y 10:23 PM

todae was like so damn tired. so after sch, me n pl went out yea... to run an errand. so first we took the train then alight at orchard station. but then something happened there. shant tok much bout it. haha! then i went to collect my stuffs. at first tot claim e thing then can leave le, but the person ask me go do health screening first. so stu! then cos they say veri fast the mah.. so ok lor...

aniwae tat aunty hu screened us tot im 20 + so dots man.. then she comment cos of my hair and my specs, so i look old? she say my fringe shld clip up then change tat specs. wait.. i cant imagine me having no hair in front of my forehead. haha! i tot i will look worst? wahh!!! aniwae.. then the aunty help mi take heart pressure n ba mai. e aunty say... i easily gt impatient n is stressed, cos my heart beat veri fast. haha! then i told pl, maybe cos gt shuai ge walk past so my heart beat faster... then she so BHB, say i tot gt mei nu walk past. (tat mei nu refers to herself.) wahahaha! aniwae inside tat room we keep laughing non- stop lor. haha! then take my height n weight. me happy, i lose some weight. haha! but my height no increase leh.. so sad leh.. i wan grow taller de, i wanted to grow to 170cm. haha!

then we took train from dolby guat to raffles place... aniwae we had such a hard time looking for suntec city.. haha! but finally we found tat place after 30 mins. haha! so long seh... lol! then we started to shop... so tough... we went toys r us. haha! then we went to travel booth... totally forgot our mission... lol! then we went to sakae sushi to eat. erm... eat the buffet. so cheap seh... but then we eat too much le, me feeling so bloated now. haha! i feel tat we eat longer than we shop lor. ya...

aniwae going chalet this sun... rather excited? haha!

k lar...

xia signing off!

Thursday, November 02, 2006 Y 9:08 AM

erm... todae... let's jus blog bout six good friends. aniwae banu was the first person hu named this grp. at first rite... i realli didnt expect to be such good friends with ed koh n yong chuan de. cos like starting we are not as close or we seldom tok. then i think is banu hu brought us together? as for yean man, we started to noe him in report writing. ya... presently veri happy wif this bunch of good friends, although there's some misunderstandings here and there. hmm... so let's tok bout them individually from alphabetical order... haha! lame seh...

BANU!

probably known as the gang leader of the grp. she is sociable and can realli tok alot de lor... wat topic u wan her to tok about also can de, so wif her around the grp wont like veri quiet le. aniwae her favourite qn is always " which foodcourt?" wahahaha! but then normally her fav fc shld be 5... cos gt pizza hut. lol!

next... c, d, e, f,... ooh... edmund koh.. haha!

erm.. he ar... seems to have tat mo li to make ppl from bad mood or moody to happy mood. haha! dunno u all understand a not.. but this is how me and pl felt. maybe he wont directly cheer u up, but then... hmm.. i also dunno how to explain. haha! but then he also like to suan ppl, but i think he dun mean wat he say? haha!

next... g, h, i...erm... shld be poh loo! lol!

she is like my ai qing gu wen( love expert) and my listening ear. can tell her everything de. when im sad, she sure will noe de. i practically tell her everything. but then sometimes realli hard to understand her de leh. haha! she gt tat funni "face". yeap...haha!

so next.. yc or ym?... shld be yean man... haha!

he mah.. from starting see him as a shy guy, then dun like to tok much de. but then after so long leh... hmm.. he actualli nt as quiet de bah. at times when u wan him to tok he will de.. maybe shy? haha! but then i feel he likes to outcast himself from us leh. haha! but then now.. he trying tok alot le.. n learn to suan ren le.. haha!

lastly, yong chuan. haha!

he mah.. is a clever guy... but then cos nv interact alot wif him, so dun quite understand him alot leh... jus onli noe he likes to sing.. and ya... he is veri scared to be embarrassed. tat is wat we noticed. hmm...

so this is how i peresonally feel bout them lar. hope didnt offend anibody. realli glad to have known all this bunch of good frends. yeap... aniwae gt another friend from my class.. jesster.. let's tok bout her..haha!

she mah... is a gal hu likes to chat online... can see her from 8am to maybe midnight. lol! she gt so much to tok de lor... recently she noe my secret... she's jus born to be a detective. haha! but then.. i alwaes chat wif her online.. but in class.. like less interaction de. haha! she is jus veri cheerful, can crap alot too... good crapper! haha!

all e best!!!

xia signing off!