well... vesak day also nothing better to do.

wanted go out the... but too lazy lar... =)

watched youtube. this is interesting! haha.



xiao zhu n party boys at KTV. LOL!

this also something funny... haha! 3P. LOL!



haha!


u will veri well be disappointed. dun pin to high hopes arh. =)

aniwae ytd was my dear brother's 14th bdae. haha. so young! i was like so envy of him lor. his friends i think practically noes what he likes without him hinting. they bought him a toy trumpet. oh my gosh! although it's a toy n maybe cheap, but that's wat my brother likes. so thoughtful of them.

so that makes me wonder... y now like we buy gifts for people, y are we so budget or like calculative. i rmb in sec sch, we were like so generous lor. although not veri generous but the budget we had were like 10 over dollars each. yea... but now it's like reduced to practically... hmm.. half? haha. but maybe the thoughts is what tat counts. for presents i actualli dun mind spending more... cos the person receiving it happy, i happy. =) but not too ex a thing pls.

my ear piece is spoilt!
no music= no mood.

esp like times like now. when so mani quizzes. i need it more than anithing lor. QAAS is jus a... n engineering maths too! oh gosh. i wondered wat happened.

i love reading ppl's blog. but i read it annonymously. =)

ppl around me are getting attached or having crushes or like in love like that. oh gosh. what is happening? haha. no lar... we are born to love!

my tagboard had been rather busy the last few days... to me lar... it will be back to its silent/ quiet mode soon.


todae quite a fun day wor! went to my ah ma's house.

as usual... alot of food and cousins!

played mini table tennis. super funny. LOL!

but banana didn come toade, she left before we came...



so cute!



me n kai xin. i used to pinch his cheeks when he was much younger. CHUBBY!



he was trying to kiss him. LOL!

aniwae i do LOVE kids! they are so fun to play with! woooo~


well... it's best for u not to read the bottom posts if u haven. it's kinda sad. aniwae i do feel bad n mean for writing those 2 posts.

wo xiang kai le heng duo. thanks to many ppl lor, esp from ivy's call. =) i've not lose anithing! i dun ---- mentoring animore le. =)

have no grudge against them.

they are jus so sweet n innocent.



pohloo n her mentee standing.





the mentee in the middle is mine. =)





well... im up early again despite sleeping late again last nite. for the whole nite i still cant keep my mind off that stupid issue. i've so much anger, so much to say. but when i come into my blog... i was like so soft heartened. i feel like those i wan to say mostly diminished. THANKS PPL! made me feel so much better. =) now then i realli noe i had so mani FRIENDS (BONGZ!, my classmates n ex- clsmates) hu cared for me. but there are alwaes some "friends"( they shld noe hu they are...) out there trying to show they care but they are jus so FAKE.

but still.... cant stop me for ranting a bit more yea.

this lyrics jus so true. xiao gang's 快乐练习曲.

快乐那年我们几岁
看透还没学会
心里面住着一个鬼
快乐不是只红酒杯
狂欢换一次醉
醒来后夜更黑
我以为长大一些冷漠一些
对谁都防备
可以让快乐逃走又回归
才知道知足无缺热情谦卑
真心的赞美
那是多么不容易有的誓约
啦……
快乐隐瞒着一种悲
伤心仍学不会
打开那上锁的心扉
快乐不需要被包围
不需要擦眼泪
痛快的哭一回
我相信长大一些用心一些
失败不气馁
难过的时候会有朋友陪
也相信有爱就留有梦就醉
失败无所谓
才是快乐不会离开的体会

u cant possibly jus trust anibody. they alwaes have this protective skin around them. once they shed their skin... their true, ugly colours... it's jus so scary.

truely, after that incident, it made me so ---- mentoring alot, esp the ppl. i dun ---- ppl so easily e. it's like my first time ------ ppl. n not one but many. it takes a long time to make a real friend but takes onli 1 sec to break a friendship. (too strong a word to use... but after some time, my ------ will be gone.)

ok.. after this entry, i wont be talking much bout it in my blog le. im not bothered! wah... now then i realise my blog song e lyrics so true man. i cant change destiny. got to keep holding on. i've to learn to accept the truth. n i've done tat! amazing!

all e best! main comm 07/08! hope ur use more 人性 to treat matters. dun let such things happen again. if possible, recruit the actual number of sub comms u wan or many of them. dun follow their footsteps. it's painful.

let me talk bout something light though... met BONGZ ytd! woooo~

we watched pirates of the caribbean at world's end. it's wonderful! i like it man. although it was a long 168 mins show, but worth it. im so in love with johnny depp aka jack sparrow. he is jus so clever, witty n handsome. i love his hair!



will turner n elizabeth... wat a sweet couple. fighting also can marry. haha. but then their love is like jus so short. will was stabbed by david jones the ugly tentacles monster n so to save him, jack brought jones heart n will stabbed it. he became the captain of the dutchman. now he can onli see elizabeth once every 10 years. that is like losing him forever lor. wait so long then can see once, how to survive. but his heart is alwaes well kept with elizabeth.

the monkey is cute too!

hope there's part 4. it made me wanna watch again. but no lar save $. =)

going out with BONGZ was GREAT!



we are missing huiling here.

hope we go out again! =)


ok. mus be feeling puzzled y im blogging at this time n not sleeping or wat. cos im in a state of shock. or watever it is.

dunno if i shld jus blog it out. it's so damn sad e. it's a cruel fate. all i can say is im veri disappointed. maybe i shld have opted out in the 1st place. ok jus let me get into the point. im not in mentoring main comm. good for me. i jus feel that this whole system is so unfair or watever. jus reject someone with an email say so sry appreciate all ur help. wat u think, it's like so superficial. jus a word sorry can mend everything? it's so damn paiseh. to u maybe it's like trying to feel sorry but i think u jus dun feel anithing bout it. aniwae i so agree lor... ppl are alwaes so hard hearted. i dun mind like offending ppl here le. im not angry or wat. but i jus could not understand. maybe im not up to their expectation. could not do well lor. nvm. but then i jus felt then y in the 1st place recruit so few ppl into sub comm... then reject those pathetic 2. how will this 2 ppl feel? i doubt they even put their shoes into our position. i jus wonder if there's another person not promoted in. or maybe im the onli one. even if it is... im more or less not bothered bout it le. y shld i think so much. (jus tryin to console myself) this experience made me learn to be not so honest next time. =)

ya ya ya... this was wat they sent...

"SP BP Mentoring Club would like to show our gratitude towards your commitment, efforts and time spent together with us in the Sub-committee of Academic Year 2006/2007. We greatly appreciate your enthusiasm and support shown to the club.

However, we are sorry to inform you that you have not been promoted to the next Management Committee of Academic Year 2007/2008.

Once again, we would like to express our heartfelt appreciation to you and may there be opportunities that we could work together again in the future. "

how was it? nice? so touching wor...

i so feel like not going for mentoring le. cut off from it. haha. then i can concentrate on my studies le. this might be a good option. =)

todae's last session was realli enjoyable. maybe it's good enough to stop it here le. =) but still it might seem that im irresponsible. jus drop out becos of this? i nid time to think n time will heal all wounds. if that's true...

nvm them... meeting my BONGZ tml! so damn happy. watch PIRATES! hee!

sorry for my words in this entry. if i were to be too offending.


todae's yu le bai fen bai was hilarious. haha! SHE is still as cute n lovable as before. dan fei bi jiao hong is still as charming n funni as ever. haha! esp. xiao zhu.

aniwae ytd's bai fen bai i was shocked. y did bai xin hui chose xiao gui instead of xiao zhu? n it's like females choose xiao gui more than xiao zhu lor. for both times they asked female artise they chose xiao gui. oh my gosh!

well... thanks to adeline. she told me to tune in to 933 at 6pm. n thanks yeanman for telling me too. haha. xiao zhu made a long distanced call to singapore. woooo hooo~ his voice sounded a bit different thru the phone leh. his now in EMI. hope he does well there. n it seems zhuan jiao yu dao ai is going to be played in singapore. wahahaha! so happy! then maybe he will have the chance to come over to promote the show. another chance to see him! im jus crazy over him. =)

ok.. tml have to go back sch again for QAAS proj. todae went rather well. starting was so damn wierd. cos i, hexing, yong keong n pohloo were like so unfamiliar with one another we were veri quiet. but after some warm up... it got better. hope tml will be better.

hexing's easy to bully. =)

gt mentoring tml too! woooo~


bored doing elearning...

aniwae i spent whole weekend GREAT!

sat mus so tiring lor. woke up veri early... met some ppl at far east do some shopping.

we did wat we wanted to do. =)



we walked to heeren eat the wanton noodles. haha.

then walk to PS, daiso buy my bro's bdae present.

then went off to bugis to meet mentoring peeps for next shopping spree.



foodie + loggy + half gamie.



foodie on sale wor.



it was tempting lar... we shopped alot.

then i could not imagine i actualli walked off, board the bus n went straight home when my bus came n when they were walking to another destination. haha.

then sun, went suntec. eat alot. realli have been eating alot recently.

im jus waiting for GREAT SINGAPORE SALE to start!!!

i think elearning wont be so much of elearning. need go back to sch... SIAN!

tml mus watch yu le bai fen bai! if nth goes wrong shld be SHE VS DAN FEI BI JIAO HONG!!! =)


hei hei! this skin looks more comfortable to me. i wan to change that xiao zhu's pic... but dunno change to wat. haha!



oh man... i think im fully prepared for my ant bites to remain this ugly, scary colour le. it doesnt seems to go off lor. n it still itch. everytime i look at it, i jus try to an wei myself, but then cannot lar.. so sad leh... 自作自受。

aniwae things shldn be seen off the surface. have to go deep within to find the truth. nv ever jump to conclusions. it will lead to a bigger misunderstanding. (dun try to infer wat im trying to say here or make ani false inference.) i jus feel like writing this. =)

my brother's off for his band chalet. so quiet the house now... =(

n this sat i actualli do want to go sing K with mentoring peeps e... but seriously im broke! without money coming in, i cant anyhow spend. WHAT TO DO!?!



well... it's rare for me to be online at this time todae. haha.

for 1 reason! REPORT!!! haha.

aniwae todae's trace n trans test, dunno will be a goner for me or not. but i definitely noe MCQ is going to pull me down badly. it has alwaes been the case. but still cross my fingers it will turn out alrite. =)

now a days, i jus find how can a person change like almost 360 degrees from a happy n cheerful person to someone so depressed. i dunno leh.. but im refering to hongyan here... if she reads this. but we didn meet for so long n onli get to update from her thru her blog. all her entries alwaes sound so sad the lor. n hear from sijie also, dun tok much le n alwaes seeing her studying. but then i still prefer her toking more n being more cheerful. maybe im too sensitive or wat. but hope we meet up soon ya. haha.

i went to see the doc becos of my ant infested legs. haha. after applying medicine it like became worse? the colour become so much darker n scarier lor. my father say is a good sign but so scary still good sign? hope it jus go back to normal soon. i see le jiu yao faint, wat more others? haha.

ok... i finished my report too le! =)


SHE's PLAY is NICE!!! 好听！i like almost all the songs lor.

aniwae ytd went to shurei's bdae bbq at downtown. well, i expected to see more primary sch friends... but all i saw was... sijie, yating n shurei herself. hahaha!

honestly rite... it was wierd, with mani ppl we didn noe. then me n sijie had to self- entertain ourselves. so we were like alwaes laughing... trying to be lame. haha. n we took mani pics of ourselves. LOL!



sijie, shurei, yating n me!



i was trying to poke e balloon. LOL!



smoky feel. best pic taken for tat day. =)



spot the similarity? hahaha!




ok... let me clarify. I AM NOT A LESBIAN!!! although it seems i stick with pohloo alot, but that doesnt prove im one. I LIKE GUYS!!! i love to look at guys. my heart pumps fast when a shuai ge pass by. so all this proves IM STRAIGHT!!!! =)

n during mentoring, i was so zi HIGH. also dunno wat happen. was celebrating ivy's bdae. i like kena possess like tat. but some shld be used to it... im this HIGH!!!

then went for dinner at seoul garden with mentoring peeps. ok lar, quite fun lar... the trip there on the mrt was most fun. gossip!!! HAHAHAHA!!!





this were the peeps hu went. it seems we were mixing with the wrong grp. haha. but still it was funny. =)


haha. todae sch was a little wierd. jus dunno how to explain. things seem so different to me. haha. well, got to noe a little bit more bout my own classmates. actualli they rather fun e. i shld try harder to accept them. hee! maybe after PTN gathering it will be totally different?

n my day was quite alrite until i received this msg. damn idiot lor. aniwae cos peiying asked me to ask clement, youwei n qin yi if they free on wed to carry mass tins back to riverside. so i msg. n the 1st msg i received back frm clement was damn irritating, so vulgar. KNS! i jus wonder if it is him or his fren lor. tat was when a 2nd msg came, it was clement hu apologise saying is his fren. shld i believe him? but then i noe his a nice guy n ym told me his nice too. so maybe i shld believe him. i was so damn irritated lor. argh!!!!

mentoring main comm somethimes i jus think forget bout getting in le bah. n as far as i noe alreadi gt 2 wants the same post as me... this makes my chances lower...n cos i feel during my interview veri few bombarded me with qns, onli the 2 main person, jason n alister. so i think maybe cos they not interested in me being in main comm so didn ask mani qns. but pohloo said cos if they ask mani qns means they doubt ur ability. is it true? or is she jus trying to an wei wo? haha. nvm lar... =)

im still HIGH on K box! =)





ok, ytd was jesster's 18 bdae! went singing. oh gosh... actualli i dun quite like to sing. tat's my 3rd time. haha. so i thnk i was the most HIGH person there. make the atmosphere high mah. but was tiring. LOL! we still had alot of fun though! hope jesster enjoyed it as much as we do.

pics i haven upload yet, but soon!

aniwae i jus wan to say, ai yo. if i can like so open say out this guy's name, say how shuai this guy is or keeps blabbering bout this guy... it means, i dun realli like tat guy lar. it's jus for FUN. there's nth much. yea. dun make me until i so hua xin. haha. (hope nobody misinterpret wat im trying to say here.)

later got mentoring interview! see if i can go into main comm. oh gosh! it seems my chances are low? =)