i am so emo can.
im jus confused.
im jus searching for the real me,
the real Alexia.
i jus dunno who i realli am.
i have no idea what my future will be like.
i dun wan to be a normal office girl,
or a housewife.
i want to do something big.
but i dunno where to start.
i am so clueless!

i was a violinist.
but i stopped.
i had the passion, but it faded.
i was an artist.
i took part in competitions and won,
but i was not really gifted.
i was a dancer.
but that was centuries ago.
i was a table tennis player.
but i lost my momentum after i graduated.

now all i am is a normal student struggling in her studies.

i serve the community,
but i could not put in my 100%.

i once aspire to be an air stewardess.
but i do not have what it takes to be one.
i love to travel aound the world.
to look at how beautiful GOD has created for us.
but i do not have the resources.

after OITP, i thought to work in the semi- conductor industry,
but i lack the knowledge.
i want to work in the cosmetic field,
but i lack the drive.
i lack the encouragement.

so what do i realli wan?
im searching for that ans.

i want to be loved.
not onli by my family and friends,
but also by that special one im still looking for.
i dun dare to love,
becos i noe i will loss it.
i am bei dong.

so y am i here?
jus to be another extra human being slowly consuming the earth's resources?
WHO AM I?

ok... this is getting too emotional.
i am jus thinking too much.
i need to find my confidence.

aniwae, yanyin.
ur bet u won is till on.
i will keep my promise.
rmb to claim it. =)
actualli, my heart bet the same thing as u.
but my mind led me elsewhere.
so i won half the bet.
haha. =)